School starts back up in less than a week and it marks the beginning of first and third grade. I honestly can't believe we've already arrived at these years. But I thought about both of you today.
I don't know exactly what the next decade or so will bring but I can bet that there will be moments of triumph and joy; moments of difficulty and pain; challenges, success', first loves and heartache.
I don't even know where you'll be ten years from now but I thought about both of you today.
You see, I'm praying for you. I'm begging God to draw you close. My heart hurts for both of you.
We're not always going to see eye to eye. As a matter of fact, there may be seasons that we loathe the idea of being in the same place at the same time. But please know that I love you. Even if I don't say it enough or the way you need to hear it, I love you.
I love you not because your my children, but because God has broken my heart for you.
I'm scared to death of the future with you but I thought about both of you today.
If you ever read this please believe that it has been hard and is going to continue to be hard for me to trust you; to let go of those hands and let you walk away into the world.
I know it's my struggle and not yours, but also know that I want so much to trust you. I want to know that you're making wise decisions.
I want to be your saftey net no matter what but I know that's not necessarily my place.
The real reason I thought about and prayed for both of you today is because one day they will begin to love you more than they love me.
They are my little girls...they always will be.
Please love them well and always push them toward Christ.
I'm excited and terrified to meet both of you one day.
But please know that at some point when you were still little boys playing in a yard somewhere...
I thought about both of you today.