Leading people and ministries into "uncharted territory" is far more difficult than I could have imagined. Today I actually made the comment, "now I know why most bosses are always in a bad mood." We're in the midst of a lot of adjustment right now as we try to make the best of our limiting facilities. God is doing great things and it seems like He wants to see us use our current assets and resources to the fullest before He blesses us with new ones.
As of late I've been trying to let the teams that we've created really work and move on their own. I'm not the best at taking my hands off and watching things go. I realize that one of my biggest faults as a leader is communicating what is in my head so that everyone either understands or can at least as clarifying questions to help them understand. Part of me thinks that if I explain too much I'm demeaning the person by thinking they don't get it. On the other hand, I feel like I've explained it in plenty of detail and people either just aren't going to get it or they just flat out don't care. It doesn't help that I'm a bit paranoid and far too self conscience about my ability as a leader. I say this not to fish for compliments but to be honest about myself.
My fight against pride causes me to second guess myself and the decisions I make on a daily basis. Then I read stuff like this...
I've spent a lot of time praying for guidance and confirmation with the direction we're going as a ministry. It's interesting how the enemy will use doubt to distract you from what God has put in your heart to do. I've got some big things running through my heart and mind tonight and I expect to have some big conversations this week. I'm asking God to continue to confirm His will in my life. I pray God is doing the same in your and that you're allowing Him to use you in a powerful and bold way.
Praying for you, Irish man. I know you'll get the confirmation you need at just the right time.
Heroes returns!!
Posted by: Lindsey | September 22, 2008 at 05:58 PM